Jennifer Stewart

Making Dreams Come True and Finding Fulfillment Through Finding Yourself

Going bankrupt about 7 years ago was the most terrifying experience, and felt like falling into one of those pit traps set for wild animals in a forest. Making dreams come true, finding fulfillment – they were alien to me. It has often seemed like th... Read >

Succeeding, Perseverance – The Key To Success

Anybody who has a passion for something surely also longs for success. I am beginning to see that the key to success has two parts to it. First there is the achievement of doing what you are passionate about; getting pleasure from it and finding fulfill... Read >

Being Important and Believing in Yourself After Crisis

I look forward to the day that I have climbed right out of this pit of poverty that I fell into by virtue of my ignorance, when I went bankrupt. I did not know I was important, or that I deserved to be loved and respected. I let people walk all over me... Read >

Making Dreams Come True: Believing in Myself and Being Important

I have been wrestling with "I am an idiot" and a continual barrage of gloom and doom "what ifs". My throat has been tight, my voice constricted, as images of people criticizing me, laughing at me - or worse, feeling sorry for me - flooded my mind. Shame, ... Read >

Stepping out of History and the Shadow of the Past

I have been thinking recently about a relationship I was in a long time ago. Our love did not have a chance of surviving. Neither of us knew how to communicate to the other, and we were both grappling with trying to find our way out of our respective da... Read >

Believing in Yourself for Your Dreams to Come True

When I really want something that does not come to me no matter how hard I try, is it evidence that I should "get realistic" and give up on the dream? No. If anything it is a sign that I doubt my capacity to achieve my dreams. There is a big difference... Read >

Believing in Yourself and Creating a Foundation for a Better Life

Recovery from bankruptcy is not a simple thing. I remember once hearing someone say some people take ten years to recover - or they never do. I thought I would not be one of those victims. I was right about the part of never recovering, but it has ta... Read >

After Bankruptcy: Healing Self Esteem and Stepping out of History

When I started writing my blog nine months ago, I was in the thick of a spectacularly stubborn impasse, feeling horribly not empowered, being super-dependent on my mother, becoming super-aware of my inner critic and the warped ideas that are hard-wired in... Read >

The Power of Emotions and Stepping Out Of History

There is a kind of miraculous aspect to stepping out of history. It has happened over and over to me, in small ways and big ones, in purely material things and things more profound. If you grew up in an environment where you were not important and ... Read >

Be True To Yourself And Create Your Life

I watched the New York America's Got Talent auditions a few weeks ago. I usually get impatient with these competitive reality shows because I hate the pompous arrogance of the judges and how they enjoy tearing somebody apart. I think it is a very weird ... Read >

Foundation for a Better Life and Being Real

I've been mulling over the way bankruptcy has opened up my life. I said to a friend the other day I would not wish this on my worst enemy, but the truth is I am glad it happened and I think I have benefited in ways that are downright miraculous. B... Read >

Repressed Anger Versus Respect And Love

I recently wrote a small article about The White House Correspondent's Association dinner held in Washington in May, I believe. It is an annual function where the president, a bunch of celebrities and journalists all hang out together looking smart and b... Read >

Crisis Recovery and Creating a Foundation for a Better Life

When we hit a crisis and lose our balance in life, I believe learning to be accountable is what gets us back on our feet in a way that we do not fall down again. And I believe that requires a real, live relationship with someone who can teach us gently ... Read >

Being Loved, Being Important, and Believing in Yourself

I had a conversation with a narcissist the other day. Narcissists have a curious habit of believing they are the center of the universe, but not realizing they believe it, and in fact actually thinking that they are philanthropists. They are utterly fas... Read >

Being Real, Being Conscious and Making Healthy Choices

May has come and gone as quickly as if it were only one day. I wonder if I should surrender to the passage of time, if that would slow down my experience of it. The thing is that surrendering seems like saying "okay, I will go on the fastest roller coas... Read >